09I wanna go and never ever have to turn back. Forever.
I feel like everyone is pushing me away. I feel glad that I’m going to leave very soon. I hope I don’t have to turn back once I leave everything. I don’t think I want to acknowledge this place anymore. It’s very cruel and rude of me, of course. That’s needless to say but I’ve lost too much and too many that I’ve treasured. Things and people that I think I could trust, I could never see them again.
It’s all happening all over again. It’s just in a different perspective and some slight changes of situation. I know, I know it very well that you can never own something for such a long time, well, at least that’s what always happen to me. I just have to fall down whenever I’m happy. I just have to cry when I’m smiling. I just have to be stabbed when I trusted someone and I just have to be hurt when I fall in love. Is it that’s how life supposed to be? I don’t understand this fucking shit. What would you call them again? Oh yes, life.
I do hope some people could actually write down what they told me and printed it inside their head forever. This upsets me so much, too much. Words and words came out from their filthy mouth and made some bloody promises and just forget about it.
The old ones are going to be replace and forgotten anyway.
Well, it has been replaced and forgotten. Or may be soon.. Really soon.. That smiles will never going to be mine again. Everything that we’ve built up until now are going to be useless.
